Expression
 The clock, the door, and the box of memories. To be frank, life has been treating me rather well. I guess i have chosen the right door. But there is just one thing that always make me worn out, the clock. Twenty four hours a day is assuredly not enough for me to settle things.
My sleeping pattern is all messed up and i ended up woke up with distressing feeling. Memories from the past keeps haunting me. This morning, i woke up remembering things that i used to forget. Constant memories of mine keeps rolling in my head and it drives me crazy each and every time. I feel like i have been trapped in a box of memories. My hands and legs are locked up and my body is in fetal position. How to get out from this box? Exhausted.
 School isn't fun at all and the stupid rules are too strict. The only way to escape yourself from discipline teacher is by being a fully lifeless nerd. How stupid is that? Thank god, this is my last year in high school and i just can't wait to get out from this place. I'm now starting to be busy with studies and books are officially my best friends from now. Almost over
 Don't ask me what's going on because you know that school will be reopened in the next few days and i'm not ready at all. I mean, not because i haven't bought my school stuff but....hm you know i'm still in my holiday mood and it's really hard to let it go. I need more holidays. Extra, extra and extra holidays. Urgh. It feels like school holiday just started yesterday doesn't it? Time is running way too fast!! :( Sorry for being too emotional but i just hate the fact that holiday is almost over. I feel like dying...... I'm trying not to think about it right now but the more i try to forget, the more it keeps running in my head. How can i control myself? Do you think i'm paranoid? Duh. I don't wanna ruin my mood today because of this. Walking with happiness.
 Don't worry, i'm still alive. I have embarked on a new journey. Each step that i take brings me more closer to the door of happiness. I've never felt this way before. My mind is like an open meadow. Seriously, i have nothing to worry about at this time. It feels like a free bird in the sky.
Well, I am very excited. I must pack my bags by tonight because i'm going on a vacation tomorrow. It's been awhile since i've spent time with my family. Uh, I'm running out of time. I gotta go now, my mom is calling me to pack my bags. I'll update more soon. Oh not to forget, Al-Fatihah to Tyah's granny :(
No Regrets
 On a brighter note, i'm truly sorry but i won't come back to Twitter. That's my own decision. I've thought of doing this awhile ago, and i guess the time has come. You know, sometimes you need to sacrifice the most important thing in your life. I just did, and i keep on moving forward in life with no regrets. Some people live for the fame but not me. I guess i don't even need it in my life. It's killing me in silence. Once you get into it, there's no turning back. To anyone who believes those fake accounts/pages that are using my pictures and admit themselves as Miyyo Azman or Captain Kidrauhl, i'm sorry you've been fooled. I do not own them and whoever created it, I'm sorry to say but you look really pathetic and lifeless. You are supposed to do something else better than this. So what i need you guys to do now is please make a report about those fake accounts/pages. I recommend you to do this right away after you read this post. This is the last request from your captain. Thank you :) p/s: I'm sorry for everything. Don't forget me.
Miserable
 I'm not doing okay lately. I don't know, i'm constantly miserable. Life didn't seem to be worth living and things would never get better. Can i just run away to a place where can i live alone and don't care about others? Am i over thinking too much? Huh. You know how it feels when you always treat people nicely, but what comes back to you are out from your expectation. It's even more worse that i thought. But my dad ever told me, "Always being nice to people. It's okay if they hurt you. At least, you don't hurt people". Seriously what makes you happy for hurting someone? One day, you will get back for what you've done. God is fair. I've been hurt so many times. That's why i rather live alone and doing my own thing. No one can hurt me. Nothing to think about and what i will care about is my own self. Moving on
 Notes from myself.
 Let's imagine I'm currently in a beautiful city called, Paris. Walking through the streets and staring at the Eiffel Tower while eating some delicious chocolates. Yes, i'm still wishing for having a great holiday in Paris but i guess i just need to forget about it. My close friends knows how much i'd love to go there and we were planning on being in Paris like so many times but we failed. So as you can see, these holidays are same like any other days for me. Watching the same movies and repeating the same routine all over again might turns me into a sick zombie. I think i should do something productive. I suggest myself to read some good books. Oh how about my vampire's book? Yes that would be great. I don't know why but it's hard for me to finish a book. Boo to myself.
I miss Nigel. Yes, Nigel. He is the main character in that book and he is such a lame vampire. I don't get it why but unfortunately, when he transformed into a vampire, he didn't become all broody nor attractive. I guess i should teach him how to be more attractive. Haha. |
